Actor Hoffman who died from heroin overdose wrote of “demons” in diaries

In my post of Aug. 26, 2012, “Psychiatric nurse says half of patients have a spiritual affliction,” I wrote:

It is partly through our faculty of reason that God protects us, so any activity that impairs our mind and will is a threat to the integrity of our selfhood. Any activity that involves an abandonment of self-control can provide an opening to the demonic. Since nature abhors a vacuum, the invitation is extended for something or someone to enter in to fill the void. In that light, it is interesting that an Alcoholics Anonymous counselor once told FOTM’s Joan that a recovering alcoholic’s mental age is much less than his chronological age; it is the individual’s biological age when he first began drinking. In other words, the person was not really present during the alcohol-soaked years, which raises the troubling question of who — or what — was there instead.

Why is it that when alcoholics or drug addicts say they’re fighting or struggling with “demons,” we don’t take them at their word?

The latest example is actor Philip Seymour Hoffman, winner of an Academy Award for his portrayal of the writer Truman Capote in a 2005 movie, who died of a heroin overdose on Feb. 2, 2014.

Philip Seymour Hoffman

A friend found Hoffman’s body in the actor’s Manhattan apartment, with a syringe still in his arm. Hoffman was only 46 years old. He left an unmarried partner, costume designer Mimi O’Donnell, and three children they had together, ages 5, 7, and 10.

Since a young age, Hoffman had abused drug, alcohol, and in his words, “anything I could get my hands on. I liked it all.” After graduating from college at age 22, he went to rehab for drug and alcohol addiction, but relapsed more than 20 years later with heroin and addiction to prescription medications. In May 2013, he checked himself into a drug rehab for about 10 days. He was also attending Alcoholics Anonymous meetings in New York.

Richard Esposito reports for NBC News, Feb. 11, 2014, that when police searched Hoffman’s apartment, they found 49 full bags of heroin, 23 empty bags of heroin, four bags of white powder believed to be cocaine, various prescription drugs, and two small diaries — one measuring about 6 by 8 inches and another approximately 7 by 9 inches.

Those diaries reveal a man who was troubled by “demons” and struggled to control them.

According to multiple sources familiar with the diaries’ contents, the hand-scrawled entries make reference to drug deals, to the actor’s struggle with his “demons,” and his attempt to stay clean by attending Narcotics Anonymous meetings.

But the diaries are also hard to read, with scribbled lines, and sentences that run into each other. The handwriting sometimes starts out clearly and then becomes illegible, as if he had written parts of the diaries while high.

Sources say “It’s stream of consciousness and difficult to follow. In one line he refers to ‘Frank who always owes money’ and on the same page he writes about a 15-year-old girl from Texas”; and “It seems he did at least part of it in rehab. It definitely contained some soul-searching. But there is also a fair amount of rambling that doesn’t make sense.”



13 responses to “Actor Hoffman who died from heroin overdose wrote of “demons” in diaries

  1. k2globalcommunicationsllc

    pharmakia is a spirit no?


  2. Thank you Dr. Eowyn for this important post. The struggle people have with alcohol and drugs is a formidable one, and one that invites evil particularly because people are so vulnerable, since they have lost themselves temporarily to addictions. I feel so badly for Hoffman’s wife and children. I will say a prayer for them and for Mr. Hoffman, that God grants him mercy.


  3. I don’t mean to bring up a shallow issue, but how many people thought he was older than his age by as much as a decade?


  4. Add to the drugs and alcohol the surrendering of one’s own Christian nature as one assumes the character of who knows what in the script. Acting makes such a great demand on the soul, only special people survive.


  5. Supposedly Hoffman was clean for 23 years. I rather tend to doubt that. Not in the environment he was in. He supposedly loved his family but …. not enough to legitimize his relationship with the mother of his three children. What do they call children born out of wedlock? Oh yeah, bastards. There’s a loving father for you.

    So we have another self absorbed individual fresh out of rehab found assuming room temperature with a heroin spike sticking out of his arm. Dumb ass.

    Hollywood mourns the loss of yet another star; the same Hollywood that celebrates the exact kind of relationship that spawns bastards, glamorizes pornography and drug abuse and makes gazillions of dollars in the process.

    Wake me when it’s over.


  6. Also it should be noted narcotics anonymous “narconon” wouldn’t be of any help, especially for spiritual matters, since it is a spyentology front organization, spyentology that is directly related to aleister crowley’s O.T.O. etc. It is curious though, both hoffman and Shirley Temple are now deceased, one wonders if they knew anything of “anything”… so to speak.

    *name of occultic satanist organization altered to make sure no shills go googling and try to make trouble here.


    • Hollyweirdos seem to die in sets of three.


    • Seumas, you got me on this one. I just googled O.T.O. since I never heard of it and how the heck is that connected to N.A.?


      • Seams is confusing N.A which is a self governed group of addicted who have self help groups in shitty church basements anonymously with a rehabilitation center that is funded by the scientology religion/cult /corporation /freakshow ,by the name of Narcanon. They are two different things. Both are annoying. Yest one isn’t really trying to hurt people (NA ), they are just pushy know-it-all who claim to have the only answer for getting clean. And often push out new people by chastising the use of medication that actually has a success rate causing many people to go off much needed meds and relapse or die. But they don’t mean to cause harm they’re just ignorant. However Narcanon has facilities in the U.S and Canada and charges very confused people a ridiculous amount of money to suffer through nonmedicated detox which can be fatal and then tries to turn them into scientologists and makes them work there in addition to taking so much of their money. People have been known to be stuck inpatient there for over a year in “treatment” . It has a horrible success rate. And people who I know who went there have had to excape due to traumatic events. Big difference. Both kinda suck. NA can help if you ignore most of the stupid people there. But if you’re a real addict good luck get therapy and meds and go to group therapy. And don’t ever stop. Oh and don’t bother counting your days cause it sets you up for self hatred when you relapse. Just pick yourself up and keep going. Or get methadone until you can get a year away from the lifestyle. Fuck what everyone else says you’re the only one who’s opinion matters.


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